Why can't I sleep......................

It's 5:28 and I haven't slept, tried for 2hrs, but got up
to check out what friends were up to.
Need to sleep,
want to sleep,
but can't stop thinking.....
about everything,
everyone,
past, present and future....
How I could have better handled confrontations,
how to correct mistakes,
concern for those who won't allow me to,
how to improve my relationships both near and far,
thinking thinking thinking thinking thinking....... to much thinking.
I know that not everyone will love me or even like me for that matter,
but it still bothers me when I am not forgiven for mistakes, weaknesses, or simply inabilities.
I need to be more forgiving of others and allow myself to let go and forgive myself.
Three months of mostly clouds is getting to me.
I want to be with people,
but after being with people,
I feel drained and want to stay away from everyone.
Does this make any sense?????
I must try to get some sleep, there is too much which needs to be done today.
Chocolate before bed and no estrogen replacement cream.
Maybe they are the cause.
That is it!!!
I'm telling the doctor that I can not go with out the estrogen!!!!